So at this point (as we can see from my previous blog posted), I think I have hit my ‘rock bottom’, as it were.
The combination of both school stresses, love life, futuristic goals and the juggling act of work, social and family have become incredibly overwhelming to the point that I see no finish line.
I am not going to “end it”, not today, but I feel as though this is more of a post to plan out what I have to do.
If I were to “quit” today, there would be so much of my life left unanswered and so many people who have invested so much that would just be let down. I cannot in good conscience leave uncertainty, anger, and sadness with the people who I care the most about… so I am devising notes.
No, not suicide notes, just notes.
These notes will take care of the answers I think they need to hear from me. Being me, I am incredibly selective about who I open up to, and additionally am very precise in what details I share, and what information I know about the others (it is generally a good understanding).
Being me, I am incredibly selective about who I open up to, and additionally am very precise in what details I share, and what information I know about the others (it is generally a good understanding).
My first step is selecting people.
From there, I work on making their lives the absolute best I can.
If there is one thing I am going to get out of my life, it is going to be that I make those I care about feel infinitely better about themselves and what they do.
This is the first step- notes and making other people’s lives feel notable.